i have no idea why, but i think this is the sexiest photo ever:

i think i have been putting this off for awhile.
I tried but when i did go to write, i could think of nothing to say and my page would remain blank.
like now. i simply can't think of anything interesting or intellectual to say.
it's friday afternoon and i am sitting back relaxing watching WWE RAWR, don't ask me why. it is so fake. everything is staged.

i feel like i don't have anything else to say anymore.
thats it.

He was a student teacher.
He was at my school to help teach so he could get the right amount of hours so he could receive his diploma in teaching.
I was lucky enough to have him for a term as my geography teacher.
He was instantly welcomed in by my year level and the whole school community, he was friendly and easy to come to for answers.
He somehow managed to control a class that others could not.
He was an enthusiastic teacher and had a new energy about him, by this, my class and myself would actually learn from him.
He was an older brother figure in the school, and he was easy to go to if you had questions.
He had fun, and once when he fell off the stage onto the top of our desks, we then continued to tease him about it for the rest of the year.
He went on camp with us, and in that week, everyone became closer with him, and welcomed him more into the school community.
When his time at my school came to an end, we were all deeply sad to see him leave, but there were hopes that he'd come back and get a full time job, like so many other student teachers do.
He said he'd miss our Georgraphy classes.
He was a legend.
He was also a keen motorbike rider.
One day, he was coming back to melbourne on his bike on new years morning.
He was on the Princes Highway, when a 17 year old driver switched into the wrong lane.
He was in that lane.
And that's when the car, and his bike collided, head on.

Nigel was taken to hospital, and then declared dead.
He was 28 years old.

We were told this tradgic news today during assembly, on our first day of school.
I had to stop my self from crying.
I know i can speak on behalf of everyone when i say, the news was devastating.

He was such a good guy, you think, but how can this happen to him? to someone i know?

I hate saying goodbyes, because you never know when you'll see the other person again. I felt like this the day he left, i remember i almost cried. i'm kinda emotional like that.
It's seems sorta surreal that for a fact we will never see him again. It feels like how it felt when we found out steve irwin died. like someones gonna jump out and go "HAHAH KIDDING!!! FOOLED YOU!" but i know that won't happen.

I think just this whole thing proves to me that anything can come around the corner. It was a huge shock.
You need to make every second count.
R.I.P Nigel, i only knew you a short time, but it was long enough to make an influence on me.
A bright person like you didn't deserve this. No one deserves this.

tori.

japanese photo booths ftw.
these photographs are featuring kate (smashapumpkin1), Jc (hungrycatapilar) and myself.



we start school in 3 days. kill me now.

I love this musical. i went through a stage i would watch this movie everyday. same with Phantom Of The Opera.
The Rocky Horror Show came to melbourne about a year ago and it took me all this time to finally see it yesterday, the day before it closes.
i wish i'd seen it earlier, i would have loved to see it again.

i haven't written on here in awhile. maybe i could blame it on being down at the beach, being buried in the sand and forgotton. i could say that i was found by a bohemian circus and are now training lions in cyberia. or that a prince came and whisked me away to become the future queen of some foreign land.
but if i said any of those i would be lying.

life is sweet.
i got to see a bunch of my close friends today, and as soon as i saw them it occured to me how much i've missed them.
i love being at the beach, but home is better, maybe the place isn't what makes it, but it's definatly the people in it.
summer, swimming, talking, listening to music and laughing is what we're about.

My dearest friend Eloise is back in Australia. She moved to England when we were 13, and is now coming back to live. i am so happy and i cant wait to see her.
It must suck having to move to a different country and leave all of your friends behind, make new friends, and then having to relive it all over again. but this time lets hope it's easier as she already has friends on the other side :)

Yesterday and the day before i went to the Australian Open. Once with my friend Helene and the other with kate.
I must say i have never really been the biggest tennis fan, but after those two days i can confidently say i will go again next year.
I used to wonder how people could sit through an entire tennis game, but now i understand. the atmosphere is amazing. There was an american guy behind us at one point who was saying that he had never seen an atmosphere like the aussies for the tennis. it was fun.



anyway, im out.


ta taaaaaaa my lovelies!



p.s. i realised this entry looks a bit dull, here's a picture to brighten it up.

1 Dolla Gaskarth

just got into bed and realized how sore my legs are. I can feel the heat radiating off them. And there two toned. Tan onthe front bright red on the back. The one place I forgot to put sunscreen on today before heading to the beach. =/
All is well down at Apollo bay. It's good to be back with people who had a huge influence on my chilhood holidays. Hard to believe were all groing up, it feels like it was only last year that we were spending all day crafting wooden sorwds, bows and arrows and fighting over who could be legolas (although since me and kate were the youngest we would often be givin the roles of merry and pippin or frodo and sam) so that we could go out ork hunting at dusk. Fun times. And now 3 of us have finished school :o

Speaking of school, I've been thinking about what subjects I want to do for years 11 and 12, and what I want to do when I finish school. Honestly I have no clue and are a little scared.
I know I love drama, and I really want to continue it, but it's just hit me that the next opportunity I get to do drama will be for VCE (I think it's like finals for Americans or somthing. Hsc for Sydney siders.) and I don't think I'll be good enough. There I said it. I'll be dong it with the year above me and it makes me shit scared. I guess I'm a bit intimidated since there a year up on schooling than me.
But even though I have all of these worries. What worries me more is the thought of giving it up.
What can I say? I've always been a little dramatic, and I love that once your stage you can be anyone you want. Anyone but yourself.

Bahh sorry for my ramble session I had there. And sorry again for thespelling and gramatical errors that are bound to be up there more than usuall as I'm on my phone.
Oh and thanks if you actually made it to the end of the blog.

Ciao lovelies!

Tori :)

so tomorrow i head down to the beach :) every summer holidays when christmas finishes we head down to the beach and spend pretty much the next 3 weeks there.
tommorrow me and my friends are heading down to Portsea on the Mornington peninsula. i can't wait. i havnt seen them for about a week so i get to spend the next couple of days with them.
then after new years were going down to apollo bay.
i love apollo bay, it's so beautiful, where the country meets the sea.
i have a group of friends who i only really see down there too, so i cant wait. we've been going to apollo bay all my life and we're starting to be remembered by the locals now, so it's nice. it really does feel like home.


Portsea front beach.



Apollo Bay beach



anyway, talk to you soon lovelies!

tori :)

I kinda like the idea that angels exist.

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/703983/hospital-angel-caught-on-camera


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Merry Christmas everyone! i hope you all got what were on your wish lists!

I finally feel like my life has slowed down. I've been waiting for this time for months,to just beable to relax and take it easy.
the last two months have been hectic thanks too --
our year school drama play. we did this all ourselfs. we were put into stage craft groups and i was one of the three writers. we had to have the play written in a week and a half. and then we had to put it all together to preform a week after.
i was also in a production of A Midsummer Nights Dream outside of school. it was fantastic to meet new people, and to work with such talented people. i can honestly say that one day i will see some of those peoples name's in lights. the production was tribal themed. i was just Peaseblossom the fairy, but we faries had the most wicked makeup, costumes and hair.
heres a picture of my makeup.



I've had choir rehearsals on, i got into a choir to go to Europe next year.
and i've had so much on i havn't been able to play basketball for ages. i feel horrible for letting down my team, but i just couldnt get out of these things.
and on top of all these things it was the end of the school year, so we had heaps of work to get done for reports.
But now it's all over, and while i'm relieves, im a little sad everything's coming to an end.

But in other news it christmas time :D christmas is my favorite time of the year.
what are you guys hoping to find under the tree this year?

anyway on another note, i decided to show you guys what i'm loving atm.

so heres a few things.

1. Facial Cleansing wipes.



thanks to the drama productions im in, i can't go without these. these are the best things that have ever been invented. ever.

2. My big yellow bag.

it's big and it's yellow. my friends got me this for my birthday, i love it :) i can fit all of my shit in this thing. plus it's bright yellow, so it ads a bit of cheerfulness to my day :)

3. Paolo Nutini's "These Streets"



I've only just started listening to his music properly. I'd heard a couple of songs ages ago and liked them, but just a couple of weeks ago i finaly brought his album, and i can't take it out of my cd player. He just has such an amazing voice. he can sing the most un attractive things about himself and he still makes it sexy. I definatly recommend this album. Download: Jenny Don't Be Hasty - Paolo Nutini.

4. My iphone



This thing amazes me. i've had it for about 4 months and i am still discovering things about it. but yeah. it's pretty awesome.

5. Bettsyville by Bettsy Johnson "Jamie" shoes



These shoes are my babies. when i saw then in San Fran i fell in love with them. my mother didnt quite feel the same though, she said that if i got them and wore them, when i spoke to people they would be staring at my feet not my face. but that didn't stop me, i then carried them on as hand luggage. this will sound pathetic. but just looking at them makes me happy. haha.

6. Dirty Sexy Money season 2



This is the best television show ever. Every episode has a new twist. Plus the Darling family are so intriguing.


and there you have it. thats all about me and what i've been doing recently.

talk to you again soon lovelies!

tori